Ouch! My toe! My toe! It hurts!!!

Just what was happening?

I haad this ingrown toe-nail that was digging into the flesh at the base part of my toe for some days now...I guess the bowling game on Friday made it worse, such that I had difficulty putting on my shoes on Saturday.

OUCH!!!

I had to visit the doctor today to have part of the nail removed. Let's see, first he had to inject anaesthetic into my toe such that I won't feel any pain. Then he made a few cuts to seperate the nail from my toe...imagine his surgeon's knife going underneath my toenail...(creeps!), followed by a swift pull with his tongs. Out goes the problem part of the toenail. Then he cut away the swollen skin to let the blood out.

Once that was done...he promptly put on some antiseptic cream, gauze and bandaged up my toe. I was told not to get that toe wet for the next two days. Oh well, and then to return and get my dressing changed.

Hmm, all this will put me out of action (from running and my usual brisk walking speed) for at least 2 weeks...aw shucks!!!

So people, you are gonna to see me limping around for the next fortnight...I wouldn't be myself without my usual pace...

Till the next post, ouch we go!!!

Almost a Hobbit

It was with chatting with a friend that I remembered that I almost became a Hobbit this year...

Hobbit? Are you sure about that? You mean the Hobbits that were so beautifully written by Tolkien and later fleshed out oh so nicely in the LOTR movies?

Yes...late last year, after I had left my previous company, I was wandering around on the cold wintry streets (haha, this is laying on it a little too much!)

Anyway, I saw this ad that were looking for actors/actresses to play the parts of characters from the Lord of the Rings. Ok, you people know that I am hot on LOTR, so you can expect me to be 100% interested.

So I went down to this place near Tekka Market, where the audition was being held. So actually this was in conjunction with the LOTR exhibtions that was being held in London and will be coming to Singapore before goingto Boston. The organizer wanted to hold a series of roadshows held at major shopping centres that involve some figures from LOTR with a fictional Singaporean character.

I read for the part of Frodo Baggins....well...literally read. The organizer wanted to cast me as Frodo, but then due to my ongoing studies and work, I could not accept. However he was still willing to let me play-act as one of the Hobbit "models" walking around in the exhibition halls. Sounds not bad at all...

Except that two weeks later, he called up to inform that the main sponsors had decided to do away with the roadshows. Thus no roadshows, no need for "actors", and also no need for Hobbit models...argh!!!

Oh well, that was a dream that nearly came true...now thinking if I had become a Hobbit, even for a day...I would have curly hair...

Now wouldn't that make me look like Phua Chu Kang from the comedy TV series PCK Pte Ltd?

"Don't play play ar!"

I am my own worst enemy

I think I have become my own worst enemy. I think the greatest problem also lies in myself. If I don't heal myself of this anger, I can never succeed in whatever I am doing.

Sigh...

I need anger management!!!

I don't know why...the Dark Side of me has been active once more. It's my anger...and this time it's killing me!!!

An injustice was done to me some time ago. The thing's over now but I don't know why the feelings of anger, frustration, hatred and vengeance still reside in me despite all efforts that I have tried to reduce it.

I know I have many faults but this anger inside of me refuses to buck down. It's building inside of me, becoming a mega-strong force that sometimes I can't barely control. I lash out at people verbally. The bloodlust cover my eyes and it's as if a demon has possessed me.

Argh....what can I do?

What to write for today?

I can't be writing about soccer again...hmm, so what do I write? I thought of writing a short piece of my Sociology readings, but my mind's too fuddled with sleep to even write any thing on that.

Wonder if anyone ever had problems concentrating on their classes with a growling stomach? I am sure many do have that experience. In fact I got gastric pain once when I did not eat anything after work and rushed for lessons straight away. Before that I was already adopting that practice for a few nights...imagine the extreme discomfort it caused me...you can't even begin to guess...

Turmoil and Despair

This is strange. I look at myself and see the state that I have gotten myself into...neither here nor there.

I am not as successful as I should be, yet by the same measure I am perhaps better off? At least I still have a job and not wandering the streets. How is this possible? Has survival become the main theme nowadays? Just survival and nothing else? What matters then? Has it become a divide between the "have-its" and "have-it-nots"?

This is a similar scenario that many of us face nowadays in a whole new world that is ever changing and evolving. Maybe it is my world-view that has changed. Maybe I am going through some form of growing-up process. Maybe...maybe I think too much...but I do believe that a bit of what I said leans toward Marxist thinkings. Perhaps the product of reading too much Sociology.

On other matters, there is much that I have yet to learn, and I know that I have many flaws too. "No man is perfect"

I sense that for the moment I am like a fish out of water, gasping for every breath. I get impatient and easily angry...I am just frustrated at my "stuck in a rut" scenario!

Looking at this, I guess it will be a long time yet before I can be really at peace with myself. :-(

Writing mood starts again.

Me will be in a writing mood these days...so expect to see a "moody" me...hehe

EPL trophy in Singapore

Well...well...the English Premiership trophy won by Arsenal (read this: unbeaten for 38 matches in one season.) is here on display in Singapore!!! Yippee!!!

Me going with my fellow Arsenal fans (also known as the Gooners) to Elizabeth Pub (that's the base for Arsenal supporters in Singapore, just as Devil's Bar is for Manchester United fans.)

Then it's the crunch match against our city rivals from Tottenham Hotspur...may the Gunners win again!!!

Champions! Champions! Champions!

A bit of good news...betting-wise

haha, after a long hiatus ,I got to buy bets on soccer matches (must put this as a hobby in my Friendster profile)

Won a bit of money from the Man Utd- Manchester City derby. I betted on a draw. Well, the actual result? A 0-0 stalemate between the two teams.

:-)

A taste of clubbing

Hmm..attended a friend's birthday party at Phuture, and then popped by to Zouk.

Look, people, if you know me well enough, I am never one for clubbing. So for me, it was some kind of an eye-opener...

Well, you must think that I just come out from some prehistoric cave or rural countryside farm. "Country bumpkin"...that tag seems to suit me huh? hehe...

Tried a few mixtures of alcohol...hmm I didn't get drunk...only three possible reasons...1) I am a good drinker...2) there was more ice than alcohol in my drink ...3) I haven't drunk enough wine such that I can take on a hungry tiger like the Chinese folk hero Wu Song in "Water Margin".

Went to Zouk (boy was it crowded!) and saw all the clubbers dancing away in the hall. Seems that everyone was slowly dancing along to the trance music, gyrating their bodies to the rhythm and nodding their head in response. I joined in for a short while for the fun of it.

Anyway, I did bought a gift for my friend, who's celebrating her 21st birthday. She would be flying off to Australia to study in a few months' time (so lucky!) So she did invite many of her friends. So got to speak to them. Never had the chance to speak to so many people in one night.

Hmm, on another note, why do so many girls smoke nowadays? Okay, I should include guys as well...not that I want to be a MCP...but for girls to smoke, it doesn't make them look any better or what. And there is the health risk. Ok, I have friends who smoke but that is their choice, and I don't interfere with it. But I don't smoke and I will go all lengths to make sure my future other half (whoever she may be...) doesn't smoke or if she does, she will give up smoking.

You may think what a MCP me!

Back to the topic, overall, this was an interesting night out (minus the fact that my clothes smelt of 2nd hand cigarette smoke). But I wouldn't rule out the possibility of going for such another session...hehe...

Something that I wrote a few months back

this is something that I wrote a few months back...during a time of doubt...

The time is coming
when I must make my stand
Stay or move
to wander among the wilderness

Seeking my fortune in the world
or to stay in ignominy
be the proverbial frog in the well
and be tied down for all eternity